Alright I made up my mind

I have a feeling I'm going to die a lot sooner than I thought. So I suppose I have no choice now...


You know those moments in your life when you're being so incredibly blind, that someone has to walk up to you and slap you in the face?

I think this is one of those moments....

Sorry, I suppose I was overreacting a bit in my last post. Okay, so maybe I was overreacting a lot <_<

I was kind of being too stubborn... and a bit selfish. I was thinking so much about my own problems I didn't realize the consequences. How very smart of me huh?

Yeah...you don't have to say it. I am an insensitive, heartless bitch, and I deserve the most horrible death in existence.

Thanks Cynthia (I guess I should call you that from now on?), I needed that.

This is not a dream, this is not a nightmare. This is a reality. This is real life. None of us is safe. There are rules, and if we break it, it's all over for everybody. End of the line. I realize that now.

But it still doesn't mean I'm going to give up my mom just yet. I just got to suck it up and go over to Nietzche's. I'm not particularly looking forward to it. In fact, I've never been this scared in my entire life. My heart's still beating like crazy (Note to self: never underestimate an eleven-year-old EVER AGAIN).

I'm going to make up for it.

I'm going to go.


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I just hope this is a good idea....