Thursday, January 20, 2011

Dream Journal #1

As Rebecca already knows, I was always interested in lucid dreaming. Call me crazy, but the idea of doing whatever you want within a dream, it just seems so cool to me. Dreamland always seemed much better than the real world anyways. It was always a place I could escape to, even during the day. My mom (when she was my mom), used to worry herself over this when I was a kid. She thought there was something wrong with me, I'll never understand it. Really, all I did was daydream during school hours, every kid does it right?

But that wasn't enough.

I want to be able to experience a real dream, and actually control that dream. Kind of like Inception. Only without the sedation chemicals and implanting of dangerous ideas and all that. Seriously, some points in that movie were downright scary. I wonder if my consciousness is as malevolent as Mr. Cobb. Mal is freakin' effed up!

I started researching lucid dreaming about a week ago. I'm currently in the dream recall stage, I can't seem to be able to recall dreams by myself unfortunately, but I did manage to buy myself an extra sketchbook on Sunday. Just writing out my dream doesn't do it for me, so I decided to go with the art. Fitting, yes? I was kind of hoping I would have a dream on Monday but didn't. Actually, I didn't dream at all this week except for yesterday. I have the picture and everything.

I'm such a great artist right?

Come on, you know it's true (haha).

But enough talk about my art, let me see if I can remember some details of my dream...


Alright, so I was swinging in my dream, which was weird since I was talking about swinging just two days ago. I don't know why I dreamed about swinging on a rope though. Although I did get to swing on the rope in gym class yesterday. It was awesome too, because the rope was just like that. Or gym teacher helped tie it for us. One of the guys, Dennis, pushed me too hard. I'm telling you, I was screaming. Anyways, in my dream, I was swinging on this rope swing, and I was in the park. I can't remember what the park looked like, but it seemed vaguely familiar. I didn't know why, it just did. I remember wanting to swing higher, and higher, and before I knew it the park disappeared from underneath me, and all I could see was the blue sky and some clouds. Higher and higher I swung, until I was way over the Earth's atmosphere. It felt so blissful, being in space. The moon was right above me, just one more strong swing and I knew I could touch it. I don't know if I touched it or not, that part is very fuzzy. According to the picture I did. The last thing I remember before waking up was the knot becoming loosened, and falling.

I'm supposed to be taking note of reoccurring signs in my own dreams. Somehow I feel like I'll be in this park a lot, call it a hunch. But I'm usually right about this stuff, although Rebecca would probably say otherwise. I can't wait until I'm able to actually lucid dream, but for now I'm going to take it slow. I don't want to end up like Mr. Cobb now!

Now all I got to do is wait for Rebecca to try and interpret this dream (haha).

P.S. As it turns out, I'm not the only one out there with a crazy mom. Had an interesting talk with my Participation in Government teacher yesterday about a girl who takes care of her family because her mother is having "problems". They don't even have a house, they live in a train station! It's so sad. I really want to meet this girl now.


  1. Well, if you insist, darling. :)

    First, I’ll start with the setting. You say you were in a park? Parks in dreams represent a temporary escape from reality. Knowing you this is of no surprise at all. You’re always trying to escape, silly girl. Although it does suggest that you’re going through a readjustment period. The swing suggests that you’re going back and forth between in a decision or situation. You really need to make up your mind (with college). Or is it something else? The fact that the swing is a rope seems to suggest something else. Something related to a relationship? Since its two ropes connected it seems like this. Ropes represent a person’s connection and attachment to others. I’m slightly worried that you described it loosening. That can mean something bad about this relationship. The swinging upwards is a good sign, however. It gives you the feeling of flying, usually a positive when it comes to dreaming. It’s clear that you desire freedom. Go for it dear. That moon represents completeness and wholeness. It is a fine goal. Too bad that knot loosened. Falling is not a good thing in dreams. You want that freedom but you’re too overwhelmed. You fear some sort of failure (you’ve said it yourself in school). Don’t let this anxiety take a hold of you, make your decision already and stick to it. I know that you’re going to win. <3

    I like the sound of this dream journal, the lucid dreaming I’m not too keen with. But if it makes you feel better, go for it. I’d just stick to the journal if I were you dear. You need to let out your feelings, instead of keeping them locked up inside. It’s good that you found out about someone with the same situation as you. I agree, meeting this girl would make a good experience for you. The knowledge that you’re not alone in this situation is a wondrous thing.

    Keep holding on, love. <3

    P.S. Nice picture. You still suck though. ;]

  2. I don't suck D:


    ...kinda scary Rebecca. I mean, I would have never saw that in my dream. You make it sound so morbid the way you describe it. But thanks for the nice read I guess.

    So I'm insecure and can't make up my mind huh? That knot loosening is going to worry me for awhile now. I don't want to loose anyone :(

    Thanks for the kind words, anyways. You don't know how much motivation I need right now. The semester is almost over, and apparently I'm failing Fashion and Design. HOW THE HELL DO YOU DO THAT?


    Yes, knowing you're not alone is a wondrous thing. Even though I highly doubt I'm going to end up meeting with this girl now that I think about it. My teacher said he taught her a long time ago, odds are she has graduated and moved on with her family. Who knows where she could have gone. I think if I ever meet her it will be pure coincidence.

  3. Try not to worry too much. It could be nothing at all. We can't tell for sure. Just don't overwork yourself.

    Plus, failing Fashion and Design? Come on Steph, you can do better than that. See? That's your insecurities dragging you down. You need to stop that. Relax and get your act together. Try speaking with the teacher and work something out.

    Pure coincidences are entirely possible.

    Don't give up, love.

  4. I had another dream last night, I'll have a post up soon.